i drove up to your house. your WAY OUT OF THE FUCKIN' way house, just to see if i could remember. and i could. as i was getting into "i haven't been here in over 6 years" territory, i started singing that smashingpumpkins' song 'rocket'. i miIIIiiiss, me... fuck man, it was intense. it was almost mildly mind-altering. i drove right up to your house, which is a little different to what it used to be. a 100 metre driveway on plenty of acreage is now a new housing estate. i drove up and caught a glimpse of your house. is it limestone? i can't remember...i really fuckin' can't. memories fuckin' flooded back, and i kinda felt sick. it was an awesome buzz. it was like i was NEARLY 18 again. it was fuckin' awesome...WAY fuckin' awesome...i wish i sent you a postcard from thailand or something. sometimes i remember things -- quite literally -- five months too late... i thought for a little about what it was that attracted me to do this. and i kept on thinking... it has nothing to do with 'missing' you. things make sense.
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